The Need to Disconnect

In the last week I have been feeling the need to disconnect, and I am not sure why.

I don't really know how to describe it, but I am really wanting to spend time to myself more than usual. I mean there are plenty of people to hang out with here, and they are all wonderful. I have enjoyed all the time that we have spent together, the partying and the fun.

I am not sure if it is because of Christmas, or if it is because I have reached the point in Canada where I feel quite normal, and at 'home' - but I am really feeling a little suffocated. By my job - yes, by my friendship group - yes, and by life I think..

I mean I love it here, but I have gotten into a routine, and I HATE routine. Maybe thats it... it has become the same old, and I guess uninteresting to me..... I mean it is true that I get bored quite easily, and need to be stimulated... could this be it?

I guess it is strange to try and explain how I am exactly feeling... maybe its the weather? Maybe its the need to feel some inspiration again that makes me want to search more within? Maybe it is remembering the 'mazzy' people - the people I would import into my world if it was possible, and realising the lack of them here in Montreal... not friends, but mazzy people... I guess there is a difference...

Or maybe I just plain think too much...