The Workplace Blues

I have come to realise the power of work, and the importance of work in my life.

What I mean by that, is that for me personally, it is fundamental that I enjoy and extract value from the work that I do. Unlike other people I know, who are able to concentrate on the other areas of their lives in the midst of a crappy job... for me, the crappy job is a driving factor.

I can easily express this by imagining myself as a car. In order for me to be the best car I am capable of, it is important for me to fill certain fuel tanks. These tanks can be filled by family, by friends, by travel... lots of things. But if my work tank is empty (as it currently is), that really impacts me as a car. I cannot work properly in other ares of my life.

For me, this is my current reality.

I am having amazing things happening to me in other areas... I have awesome people in Montreal, I am living in another culture, I have a great social life...

But because work is really not the best environment for me, it means that I have to really move my car myself. It is not natural.

After a day at work, when my energy is low, or I may be feeling a little down... I have to really motivate myself to do these other things when it would usually come naturally... flow from my natural energy...

Gosh I am not sure what I am saying....

But letting it out can only be good.