Monday - and so it begins....

... my new European chapter.

At 9am to be exact meeting my trainee buddie, Marenne, hopping on the back of her bike, riding insanely through downtown Amsterdam, and getting all my logistics in order.

Meeting Tanja, ex MCP of Macedonia who is also starting at ABN AMRO tomorrow and getting excited that we knew each other, and for our experience ahead.

You know, yesterday I was pretty upset - but I think I really know why. For the last month I have barely spent a minute alone, I have constantly be surrounded by people. And having that day alone just really contradicted to all the chaos in my life in the last month, and to be honest created a feeling that I was alone. That yes, I was about to start to build my life again... and hey, actually did I really want to? Had I made the right decision? Was I doing what would really make me the happiest?

But today I am sure i am.

Spending the day with my dutch buddy, tonight attending the trainee drinks at a local pub, knowing the cool people that are in and are coming to Netherlands, knowing how easy it will be for me to travel to the places that I have always dreamed about, knowing that my working situtation is going to ACTUALLY challenge me for once... well it is worth it.

Plus it is afterall a short term reality - and after that I will decide which part of the world that I want to be in, that suits me best.

But for now, I am actually getting excited and slightly nervous for my start tomorrow.... but thats a good thing, because once again I know I care.

I know that I am actually passionate about why I am here, and ready to really take the new experience on with BOTH HANDS.

SO I am:

- Taking French Classes
- Joining the International Theatre Group
- Joining the Australian Embassy Group
- Joining the Amsterdam Hash House Harriers
- Joining the Canadian Expats group (hey I feel like I am part Canadian now...!)

as a start to making a life here.

So.... HERE I GO!!!