Am I going insane?
It's funny. I have been feeling really motivated lately by the subtle changes I see happening in the workplace. People talking, sing a song vouchers gaining popularity on other floors, people wanting to spend time socially...it's all very positive. And my connection with the bank, and the people in it is definately increasing... or so I thought.
It's easy though, when you are painting a room in a house to get into that room, to start to decorate it, try to make it a place that you would feel more at home in, and funny enough you start to forget the bigger house. You forget that it was the house that you used to care about, that you had plans for, that motivated you into action. You realise that whilst you have been spending all your energy and time on the one room, a room in fact you are only making look good because you have to live in it. Because it is safe to stay living it, and think about further decorating the house, instead of moving into a new room, or rennovating the entire thing.
But what you want to do REALLY is to move into another room.
You REALLY want to at least see the other rooms.
And sometimes people visit you from the other rooms, or remind you 'Mazzy, what about the rest of the house - didn't you have plans to make bigger changes to it?
Gosh.... I do not know if I am only making sense to myself.... but I think that is exactly what i am doing here at ABN AMRO. I think the things that I have to offer the room, are better suited in other areas of the house.... but when I am in this one room, one that I dont like terribly alot, but one which can seem ok at times - well I start to focus on the room and not the bigger picture..
Am I making sense?
Do I think too much?
What is going on with me?
It's easy though, when you are painting a room in a house to get into that room, to start to decorate it, try to make it a place that you would feel more at home in, and funny enough you start to forget the bigger house. You forget that it was the house that you used to care about, that you had plans for, that motivated you into action. You realise that whilst you have been spending all your energy and time on the one room, a room in fact you are only making look good because you have to live in it. Because it is safe to stay living it, and think about further decorating the house, instead of moving into a new room, or rennovating the entire thing.
But what you want to do REALLY is to move into another room.
You REALLY want to at least see the other rooms.
And sometimes people visit you from the other rooms, or remind you 'Mazzy, what about the rest of the house - didn't you have plans to make bigger changes to it?
Gosh.... I do not know if I am only making sense to myself.... but I think that is exactly what i am doing here at ABN AMRO. I think the things that I have to offer the room, are better suited in other areas of the house.... but when I am in this one room, one that I dont like terribly alot, but one which can seem ok at times - well I start to focus on the room and not the bigger picture..
Am I making sense?
Do I think too much?
What is going on with me?
2 Comments:
Hey Mazz
Snap out of it and get back to finding solution (decorative ideas) for the house.
I know you too well to think you would really be content with "just" chancing the decoration in your room.
It does make sense what yiou are thinking so go with it and show those Bankers that working can be enjoyable.
Love you
Mark
Hey babe,
Yeah I am still decorating the house... just got people together for spontaneous drinks from the floor (sponsored by mwa!!!)
But I do feel like maybe I need to do something that makes me happy intrinsically rather than something that I am constantly trying to make more happy.
MISS YOU!
When are you visiting?
Hugs Mazzy xx
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