One Compromise...
Watching the most random movie last night, Mr Deeds, and actually took something from it.
At the end of the movie, Deeds asks the room of shareholders of the company what they wanted to be when they were younger... and they shared the motivations they had in life. Money being one of the last things that motivates your decisions when you are younger.
Then Deeds talks about how they got to be where they are today.
'One day you made a compromise, then another compromise, then another, then another...'
I find for myself the same is holding true.
Will I be in 10 years saying...
I wanted to work for a bank because, ... then I went to this role becuase... then I got more money and benefits, so I did this... yada yada yada.
Have I started to compromise on what I really want to do already?
Why am I thinking within a boxthat I would never have chosen for myself in the past?
Why am I staying day after day in an environment that does not inspire me?
Why am I actually thinking of taking different roles in ABN AMRO when I fundamentally am not engaged in the purpose of the organisation? When I am not engaged by the bigger picture?
Am I compromising?
What am I compromising?
Am I telling myself that doing this is a good step ... to what? the future? What about the here and now?
When is it 'time' to do what I love, in an environment I love?
Am I settling on second best?
Why am I not chasing my dreams more actively?
WHY AM I ALWAYS ASKING THIS QUESTION..
Maybe therein lies my answer.
If ever anyone needed some drastic change, I think that person is me....
Need to take some personal responsibility... not to be content with the work situation I am in...
Ahhhh.....steps to a positive future, first one: acknowleding the need for change... DONE.
Time to actually MAKE some changes...
Watch this space :-)
At the end of the movie, Deeds asks the room of shareholders of the company what they wanted to be when they were younger... and they shared the motivations they had in life. Money being one of the last things that motivates your decisions when you are younger.
Then Deeds talks about how they got to be where they are today.
'One day you made a compromise, then another compromise, then another, then another...'
I find for myself the same is holding true.
Will I be in 10 years saying...
I wanted to work for a bank because, ... then I went to this role becuase... then I got more money and benefits, so I did this... yada yada yada.
Have I started to compromise on what I really want to do already?
Why am I thinking within a boxthat I would never have chosen for myself in the past?
Why am I staying day after day in an environment that does not inspire me?
Why am I actually thinking of taking different roles in ABN AMRO when I fundamentally am not engaged in the purpose of the organisation? When I am not engaged by the bigger picture?
Am I compromising?
What am I compromising?
Am I telling myself that doing this is a good step ... to what? the future? What about the here and now?
When is it 'time' to do what I love, in an environment I love?
Am I settling on second best?
Why am I not chasing my dreams more actively?
WHY AM I ALWAYS ASKING THIS QUESTION..
Maybe therein lies my answer.
If ever anyone needed some drastic change, I think that person is me....
Need to take some personal responsibility... not to be content with the work situation I am in...
Ahhhh.....steps to a positive future, first one: acknowleding the need for change... DONE.
Time to actually MAKE some changes...
Watch this space :-)
2 Comments:
Hi, you don't know me, but I got to your blog through Vivi's.
Its interesting to see an AIESECer down the track dealing with their values and how they use them in the real world.
Its something that is relevant for me too, as I want to end up in banking but am not sure how I will be able to live the values that I have gained in this organisation, down the track.
You've obviously taken the first step and identified that there may be a conflict between what you are doing and what you REALLY WANT to be doing.
Good luck with chasing and achieving your dreams and hopefully being a "change agent" (cliched, i know).
Ashwin Mathur (outgoing ICX director at monash uni, and soon to be DT trainee)
MAZZY!!
i finally found Vivi's blog and his first post is a link to yours!
interesting questions... hope i can pick your brain a bit more when i see you online... take care missy!!
*hugs*
Edith =)
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