One of the things I love best about Amsterdam is my bedroom. It is the 'Maz Zone'. It is the place where I come and sit to relax, to chill out, to escape from the world, to energise. It is MY place.
What I especially love about my room is that I have a huge window panel that looks out onto a huge lake – my calming waters. The effect that being around water has on me is indescribable but essential to my overall sanity. So in that sense, having my room look onto the water, and being able to sit on my window pane and feel the water breeze upon me, is simply wonderful.
And it is on this window pane that I sit today; reflecting.
It has been a strange week – and one of many personal realisations, but more importantly questions. You see, I pride myself on being a people person. I love connecting with new and varied people; understanding different approaches and thoughts, and getting energy from new insights. But it has not been until this week that I realised, not only how MUCH I love being around people, but more importantly that for me, being around people is a real need.
It is a non-negotiable. It is like fuel in my tank; otherwise my car does not drive (well at least not as well and comfortably).
Whether it is in social or professional scenarios, I get most of my energy from interacting and building meaningful connections with others… it drives me.
But to realise I how much I really NEED it, well this creates questions in my mind. To see how I can steadily slide downwards when being alone for long periods, well that is something that has also been emphasised this week. I know, I know… it’s great to take time out; to re-energise oneself but I never realised how much of how I see myself is connected to my relationships with others.
This got me thinking; WHO AM I without people? Without the conversations where I feel good because I may have added a smile, a thought, a question to another person’s day; who am I?
And on that note, am I too reliant on others for gaining my sense of self? Do I really have a sense of who I am without the interactions with others? And is it a bad thing to have people connections as a main element of who I am?
Questions, questions….
It’s strange to be thinking about all this because usually I am so busy in life, often having a professional and social agenda that leaves little time for such thoughts – but it is an interesting thing to think about… Who am I when I take away all the people? I take away all the projects? I take away all the things that make me feel good? And how important is it to discover who I am without these elements who build the sense of who I am and what I think is important…
Questions, questions….
Maybe the answer is simple: I JUST NEED TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE.
What I especially love about my room is that I have a huge window panel that looks out onto a huge lake – my calming waters. The effect that being around water has on me is indescribable but essential to my overall sanity. So in that sense, having my room look onto the water, and being able to sit on my window pane and feel the water breeze upon me, is simply wonderful.
And it is on this window pane that I sit today; reflecting.
It has been a strange week – and one of many personal realisations, but more importantly questions. You see, I pride myself on being a people person. I love connecting with new and varied people; understanding different approaches and thoughts, and getting energy from new insights. But it has not been until this week that I realised, not only how MUCH I love being around people, but more importantly that for me, being around people is a real need.
It is a non-negotiable. It is like fuel in my tank; otherwise my car does not drive (well at least not as well and comfortably).
Whether it is in social or professional scenarios, I get most of my energy from interacting and building meaningful connections with others… it drives me.
But to realise I how much I really NEED it, well this creates questions in my mind. To see how I can steadily slide downwards when being alone for long periods, well that is something that has also been emphasised this week. I know, I know… it’s great to take time out; to re-energise oneself but I never realised how much of how I see myself is connected to my relationships with others.
This got me thinking; WHO AM I without people? Without the conversations where I feel good because I may have added a smile, a thought, a question to another person’s day; who am I?
And on that note, am I too reliant on others for gaining my sense of self? Do I really have a sense of who I am without the interactions with others? And is it a bad thing to have people connections as a main element of who I am?
Questions, questions….
It’s strange to be thinking about all this because usually I am so busy in life, often having a professional and social agenda that leaves little time for such thoughts – but it is an interesting thing to think about… Who am I when I take away all the people? I take away all the projects? I take away all the things that make me feel good? And how important is it to discover who I am without these elements who build the sense of who I am and what I think is important…
Questions, questions….
Maybe the answer is simple: I JUST NEED TO GET OUT OF THE HOUSE.
2 Comments:
I know, this is a really interesting question. One of the big questions anyway together with "why am I here" "what purpose has my life?"... If you find your answer to them you're a lucky person...
hahaha I know.
It's probably something to discuss with a group of people at the pub...
:-)
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